Been there done that and have the mental, emotional and spiritual scars to prove it, unfortunantely. All I lack is a T-shirt.
Listen to what Bishop J.C. Ryle said:
" We are too apt to forget that temptation to sin will rarely present itself and its true colors. Never when we are tempted will we here sin say to us, "I am your deadly enemy... I want to ruin your life." That's not how it works. Sin, instead, comes to us like Judas with a kiss... but we cannot alter its nature and character in the sight of God."
Isn't it interesting how little things, seemingly insignificant little tiny sins, can be the litmus test of our love for Jesus.
J.C. Ryle goes on to say " of all the things that will surprise us in the resurrection morning, this, I believe will surprised us the most: that we did not love Christ more before we died."
All because of a "little" sin(s) that we just pushed aside as insignificant.
I was reminded of this today from a little book written by Joni Erickson Tada entitled "Finding God In Hidden Places" Get a copy and read her stories of vulnerability and grace.